She Bangs, She Bangs

I got my hair cut yesterday. Bangs. Real, actual, very chunky…bangs. And you'll never believe this...I absolutely hate it. Shocking, I know. I'm sitting at my computer at work right now, doing everything I can to keep my back at a perfect angle to the door so that no one can see the fracking awful monstrosity going on, on my head. I haven't felt this insecure and anxious about how I look in I don't know how long. If this is even a blip on the radar of what Agoraphobics feel, I think I understand what they are going through. I got to work early so that I could be settled in my cube, not having to walk around, once everyone started showing up.

Do you want to know what it looks like? Jennifer Aniston's character in Marley & Me. For ONCE, I get a perfect replica of a Jennifer Aniston haircut...but not something that she would actually wear. It's an outdated mess of a thing. The more I think about it, the more frustrated I get.

I'm sure I'll get used to it and it'll grow out a little so it won't be this heinous, fresh "I JUST GOT A HAIR CUT!!!" look, but boy-oh-man…this transition time is making me want to cry. I just want a cute, trendy cut that doesn't require me to chop it all off…is that too much to ask?? (I truly do love my hair stylist. She probably did exactly what I "asked" for…but at the same time? Dude, you need to use your professional expertise and not make me look like I stepped out of a movie billboard from the 80's, for heaven's sake!). I need to stop writing because I'm ticking myself off more at just how blasted unfair it feels to not be able to get a haircut that I LIKE for once.

Bah, I just need to keep reminding myself that I never ever ever like my hair the first couple days after I get it done. Ever. I like it for a couple minutes at the salon, but even then, I've just come to the point where I don't look in the mirror once it's done because I know it'll settle and I'll like it just fine when I can figure out how to style it my way.

I will say though, that my hair always feels so unbelievably soft when I get it cut. It's inevitably lighter, and then the conditioner they use…I love it. I have it, actually. I splurged last time I got my hair cut. It never feels this soft when I use at home though…or maybe I just don't notice as much?

So, since this post has gotten me all verklempt, let's go out on the positive, my hair is yummy soft, note. How does your hair look today?